Dreams

Today is day 4 with my blog, and I have 1 follower! I am on my way to fame. It may be my sister but what that means is, I am moving up in the world with my blog.

Today being the 23rd half of the employees at my work are gone because of the holiday weekend here in Utah. What could that mean? Only one word Par-tay. Just kidding. It really is just slow and boring so it gives me plenty of time to Blog, Facebook, play scrabble and Lemmings with my lovely sister. I have decided that my Blog is really just a journal, letting me express myself and grant all of you (so far, Heidi) the opportunity to jump into my head and read my thoughts. Last night a group of friends and I went to see Inception. Yes it was a good movie, Its amazing to see how many brilliant people out there in this world to come up with a brilliant idea. Afterwords we were driving to drop some girls off and got on the topic of dreams. It was interesting to hear what kind dreams other people have. It seems like most people have experienced the part in a dream when you try to run away from something and you are running in slow motion. It was agreed that those kinds are always the worst. It also turns out that was the dream I had last night. But I love my dreams. Sometimes they don't make sense or can be nightmares. But at the same time I love that I can escape from my reality and dream of a world that doesn't exist; and in the morning remember my them and try to dissect them. When I am reading a good book it seems that I always dream about them. Our minds are so powerful! I think sometimes inspiration can come from dreams we have, maybe a good story or an idea. I have always wanted to have a Dream journal. I think I am going to start one, Sometimes dreams are unforgettable, why waste them when you forget them?

It is time to close my thoughts, one day I won't be "talking to myself" on my blog.

Jar of Hearts

"And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are"

Watching one of my favorite shows "So You Think You Can Dance" I found music I have fallen in love with. It is one of those songs you can sing your heart and soul out and the lyrics are easy to memorize. but not only are they easy but they are different. I love the part it says "you're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul".

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/christina_perri/#shar

Being so young I don't really know what real love is. I know what it is from stories with happy endings, or true loves first kiss but I have never experienced it. I have ever really had one relationship. If that is what you can even call it, sense we never technically dated. but were "together" for months off and on. I relate with this song to how it was with him. Always asking him "who do you think you are, runnin around leaving scars". Christina Perri sings with hurt in her heart but she also sings it like she is sick of always going back to this relationship and says "don't come back for me, don't come back at all". And that is what I did. I just got so sick of being pulled down. Being somebody I never wanted to be. The scars will always be there but like in the song "I have grown to strong, to ever fall back into your arms.".

My First Ever Post

As a working woman of only 20 years old, I never had much thought of starting my own blog. My main question was "What would I ever talk about?" Well, looking over my shoulder in my closet (aka: office) my sister Heidi sits beside me, and always talks about amazing blogs she reads or even updating her own blog with cool pictures of her home or telling cool stories that happened to us over the weekend.

Heidi on left. Me on right
Today she left work early and I am all alone in my dark hole trying to stay focused on working. Turns out I am not doing very good at that. That is why I decided to start my very own blog (sounds exciting), because Facebook was just getting to old reading and re-reading posts all day. I am sure no one will even read this, but what the heck, what do I have to lose? Pop Quiz...A: everything B: somethings or C: nothing ... I'd pick C for my answer if I had a choice.

As my very first blog comes to a close, I am already feeling the addiction of wanting to start another post (don't worry, I will spare you today). I hope all of you that reads this (as of right now I have no followers) enjoys my thoughts.